June 11, 2008

Schools out in two days...

I’ve never run a marathon, but if I were going to, I can imagine how it would be. First, I’d prepare- mentally and physically. I’m sure I’d start the race with excitement and anticipation, mentally strong, with a clear plan in mind. But, as the miles started clicking away, I’m sure my mind would start to feel a little muddled, my body would be wearing down and at some point, I’d just go into survival mode to finish the race.

That’s basically how I feel about summer break. I always have great plans when we start out, but as the weeks wear on, we seem to “hit the wall” and just do our best to survive by the end. So, as summer draws nigh, I’m in my preparation stage. There are several aspects of preparation I focus on: summer goals for each child, weekly activities and outings, vacations, and flexible daily schedule (which basically is my list of jobs for the kids and when they need to be done).

As I write this, I realize motherhood has been a marathon. Before having children, I had such clear ideas about how I wanted to be as a mother and how I wanted to raise them. Now that I’m in the thick of it, sometimes I feel my mind is so muddled, I can’t think straight at all. That’s why I really need some quiet time each day, where I can gather my thoughts, get some perspective, and once again prepare for the ongoing race.

2 comments:

abm said...

In motherhood there isn't a finish line either!

Peaceful Mommy Kayleen said...

Thanks, AM... I've been struggling with a lot of those same thoughts and worries. Right now we have full custody of Robert's kids, so I've gone from a mother of one to a mother of 4, with one on the way, and it's been a challenge, for sure. I have certain things I want done every day, but they really haven't had much structure in their life, so it's a struggle sometimes. Thanks for your thoughts- they will help me, I'm sure. :)